Thursday, September 22, 2011

The Truth Is...

Over the past week or so, I've sat down to write a new blog post about how I've been doing, but, well, the truth is, I'm not doing well. The truth is, I haven't wanted to put that in writing. I haven't wanted to utter the words out loud; I haven't wanted to set them down in stone, or, well...publish them, but here they are: I am in a funk.

The truth is, I'm tired of Lyme disease; I'm tired of fighting; I'm tired of feeling awful. I'm just so tired. I'm tired of trying to keep my chin up; I'm tired of looking for the positive. I'm tired of feeling like the parent who has to put on a brave face for the kids. I'm tired of taking pills. I'm tired of the endless symptoms. But most of all, I'm tired of the pain.

Yes it's true, I'm stubborn as hell and I will beat this. This is one of those times when being tenacious is vital. But for now, I'm so damn frustrated, and I just want to throw myself a pity party. The good news is, you're all invited. But the truth is, I've gone into PJ mode and I'm not coming out until I'm better.
(Credit for this awesome photo: here)


  1. awwww.....if you can get here, I'm having an At Home tomorrow from 11-1ish, and you're more than welcome to sit on my couch and mope :)

  2. Aw, shoot. I am so sorry you are feeling poopy. Hang in there. You. Will. Beat. This.

  3. Sometimes we just need to curl up in our comfy pj's and have a pity party....really....this is so darn hard. The pain wears us down....So, take the time you need. We will be here when you come back!

  4. I love you, friend. I think there's a lot of tired in the air lately. And pity parties are sometimes necessary. Let it out. I'm here for you.


  5. Hang in there girl! We can do this together <3

  6. Oh Alyson,

    I feel for you. It seems we all have our ups and downs in this crazy fight. I am thinking of you and I hope you begin to have an up soon. Until then enjoy your comfy pj's.

    Hugs and prayers,