So, where does this bizarre phobia come from? Well, I have absolutely no clue since, like I said, I've never had anything even remotely close to a reaction from a medicine. But, it sure does make Lyme disease treatment difficult for me! I am constantly starting new medicines, and every single time I have to begin a new one, that old phobia rears its ugly head and I feel the need to call my friends and say farewell.
So, would you care to take a guess at what's happening today? Yep, I'm starting a new medicine. I know nothing about this medicine other than the fact that it's a very unnattractive brown color that my kids would likely dub "poopy brown." I prefer to keep myself in the dark about this medicine until I see once and for all that I haven't keeled over from that ugly ol' poopy brown pill!
When you have Lyme disease and you start a new medicine, it is supposed to make you feel bad and that's supposed to be a good thing, because it means the medicine is killing off the bad bugs and causing you to Herx. The problem with my phobia about taking a new medicine is that it puts me on hyper alert for every single twinge or twitch that goes on in my body that could signify a sign of an allergic reaction.
And the problem with that is that I've got the hiccups right now, which I'm pretty sure is my body's way of laughing at me. Damnit, hiccups, you're messing up my phobia! How am I supposed to be convinced that I'm dying if I'm hiccuping and laughing every 15 seconds! Bah! The nerve!
