Tuesday, August 21, 2012


For over two and a half years now, I've wrestled with the same question question: How do I live in harmony with chronic illness? I started this blog to chronicle my journey and my attempts at finding peace in the midst of the chaos of living with Lyme disease.

No one can predict what the future will hold for them (except maybe Miss Cleo), but with chronic illness, it's especially hard to plan for the future. So much of your life is up in the air. Making short-term plans can be a nightmare; making long-term plans, nearly impossible.

When I started this blog, I didn't make feeble attempts at guessing what my health would be like "X" years down the road, but I certainly didn't picture myself so sick this far down the road. Here I am, well into my Lyme disease journey and I've been thrown a completely new curve ball: I'm having seizures. A lot of them.

This is all new to me and a lot to digest. I feel like a lot of doors are being slammed shut in my life right now. I'm trying to be gentle with myself though, and I keep reminding myself that just because a door is closed right now, does not mean I won't be given the key in the future.

So now I'm wrestling with a new question: How do I live in harmony with seizures? Where do I put my hopes and dreams that I've already had to put on hold for so long? I want so badly to be able to fulfill my lifelong dream of becoming a massage therapist. I want to help other people struggling to cope with the life of chronic pain, but for now, the only way I can do that is through my words on this blog.

I'm sad and I'm scared. I want answers. But I still have hope. And honestly, that's really all that matters. I will overcome this!


  1. I'm sorry you are sad and scared. And I am sorry you are having seizures. I DO have faith that you will overcome this. Keep holding on to that sweet friend. Gentle hugs and lots of love being sent your way.

  2. Awww. I'm so sorry to hear about that. Sending you good vibes for better health soon!!

  3. I know that alot of people will tell you "try this medicine", or "that supplement" and you will be miraculously healed. It isn't my wish to push anything on you, but I just wanted to share a website that has a treatment outline that has really got my Lyme and co treatment on track. I still have a ways to go, but I have seen so much more improvement for me personally going this route than conventional medicine, but everybody's bodies are different in how they respond to medicine. If you are interested in just looking at it, it is http://www.beatlymenaturally.com/treatment-outline/ . Praying that God gives you strength as you continue to fight for your life!

  4. Oh no! I am so sorry Alyson! That IS scary. I hope things have improved already since this post. I wish we lived closer so I could help somehow! Thinking of you!

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